Sunday, June 3, 2012

You Were a Patch of Soul

Where do I start...

Nearly four years in the making. Whoever knew it could have been crushed so easily, a feat I wish was achieved myself.

It all started when I saw you in grade 9, but that's not the point. That's history, all of it, to be burned away into the fire of my memory.

The only things that won't be burned, would be all of the fun I've had with you. Though it may seem silly at a glance, but trading music was some of the things I will always remember.

Then what would be burned? Though the burning would take years to complete, it would include: all of the drama; the conflicts; the hate; the many tears shed; or feelings of affection that had spawn between us; in I; even you.

This time two years ago, I heard a cover of "For Good" and it has now reminded me of something very important to my soul. For four years, my focus had been towards a single person. I've tried forgetting you, and you've tried to forget me, and now it is over. In a moment in time, everything I thought was destroyed by you.

So now, it is time for me to say goodbye; something that should have been done a long time ago. This is not an apology, I regret nothing. This is not forgiveness, because you have used me, but so I have used you. This is goodbye.

I would like to think that "I have been changed..." an idea that strikes me, as something I would most enjoy, if it were true.

Farewell, for now I am gone to you; as you are to I. For when you look into my eyes, you will now find, a wall.